affinity...

i just don't know..

but Pen started to feel affinity to few people..

but the first is my amigo.. :D

then here's mike as well..

well, good luck for you senior year, Pen..

자해봐!

are u with me?

idk what i feel right now...

idk, but i miss everyone...

i miss all the things i had before...

idk what lies ahead, but im starting to feel uneasy..

idk what God is planning for me...

right now i feel so down...

im at my worst that i could be...

everything is gone... im all alone..

LORD, please give me a sign that you're still with me...

im out.. coz imma loser!!

"You need to stick with the plan today -- even just a slight change in your daily routine could create a big problem for your upcoming social plans. Your schedule might be flexible, but your friends' schedules definitely aren't."
[based on friendster horoscope for Saggitarius on April 1, 2009]

exactly.. it's definitely true..

Penpen's plan?? to attend PLATINUM's farewell party today in Virgie's Garden, Polanco..

i stuck to it.. i stuck on my mind since last week.. "Penpen must go to the farewell party.. it's the last day the whole Platinum will meet.."

but, f*ck.. what happened?? i didn't go!.. f*cking mom and dad..

you always thought of yourselves!! you couldn't even think how i feel..

even just for the last time of meeting these people... you can't give it to me??

what the f*ck!!!!!!!!!!!!! sh*t!

and, yeah.. to worsen this thing, im out of the DOST class next school year..
[that's what Tabibing told me just now..]

im not deserving to be in DOST.... im not.. i've never been.. i can't be.. and i will never be, ever!!

please end this life now!!